Sunday, July 8, 2012

Well, by yesterday's standards, last night was also a fail. Night number two with the cpap.
However, this time, when I woke up and realized I had ripped the thing off of my head I put it back on and kept it on until I woke up.
So, aside from the fact that I dont know when I took it off or how long it was off, it wasn't a complete failure. I went in to the night better. I managed to escape the thoughts of pacing my breathing with the damn thing long enough to actually fall asleep within a reasonable amount of time. And I am hoping that ripping it off will stop at some point.
By everything that I've read, if I am consistent about using the cpap, I should start feeling less tired around my birthday, August 28th. We'll see.

Saturday, July 7, 2012
I finally took some time off, though I did cheat the second day and put a few hours in from home.
Still, I feel a bit rested today. More than usual anyway.

I failed my first night with the cpap,..ripped it off sometime during the night. I'm not sure what it is, but I cant find the right pace with my breathing and it takes me forever to fall asleep, and then after I do I bail on the damn thing. It's going to take a lot of will power to get into this. I have all the right motivation, but I think during the night I'm feeling the same thing I sometimes feel when I'm still awake and it's on,..like I'm drowning. Gotta do this. GOT to do this!