I live

I live, making choices

Happy because I choose happiness

Peaceful because I choose peace

Positive, because I choose the light

I live, listening to the music that is me

And appreciate the melody of who I choose to be

Lets be honest

Cranial Bulimia,...that's what I am shooting for here. A place to purge all the thoughts that bloat my brain to distraction,..a place to let go.

I dont know as that I ever put much thought into what my life would be like when I hit fifty. Although it's pretty safe to assume that if I'd ever have had a preview of the path that I have followed, and where it led me, I would have found it a little hard to believe. For the most part, I have all of the things that I ever wanted. A family, a career, a home,..it's the me inside of me that would have been odd to imagine. Secure, somewhat self assured, opinionated, a thinker, a leader, spiritual,. I never saw any of those things coming. Not that I view these things as accomplishments. They are more challenges that I accepted and I'm continually challenged by.

That "thinker" thing is what brings me here. A lot of my misspent youth, I just wasnt thinking,..as in "what was she thinking?" My life was leading me instead of the other way around. Now, I think too much. I over analyze things,..I agonize over things,..crazy things bother me, big things, little things,..things, things, things.

So here, in writing, my first wretching purge,...a list of the things that bother me. Today, anyway.

*I dont understand why people dont want other people to have quality health care.

*I dont get why anyone with a brain, who believes they are a Christian,..hates anyone they do not know.

*The direction our country seems to be moving in alarms me. Am I the only one that sees big business  ..involvement in politics as terrifying?

*Maybe it was me who betrayed my body before my body started to betray me, but in either case, it pisses ..me off. 

*kids,..my kids,..letting their lives lead them instead of the other way around. Yes ~I see the hypocrisy in that

*stupid people,...and the extent to which I let stupid people bother me,..bothers me.

There you have it,..