I know

I've been trying too hard
for too long
to be quiet
the screaming in my brain
is hurting my ears
and the things unsaid
are hurting my heart

The things I want to say
that rattle around in my brain
like unspent coins
were at one time said about me

"Get your head together"
"think about your child"

The reason I don't say anything
is that I know how those words are heard